I have been Tagged!

Know Me As I Know Myself
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Srini has pinned me. My first tag
Note to Srini: I've copy pasted this from your post with appropriate mods :P ( Even this one.. hehe )

Names You Go By:
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Narendra
Narendar
Naren
Naru

Three Screen Names You Have Had:
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Me not an actor!

Three Physical Things You Like About Yourself:
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Decent physique
Nothing else
Nothing else

Three Physical Things You Don't Like About Yourself:
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My face!
My height :-(
My eyes!!!

Three Parts Of Your Heritage:
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Locational

Bangalore
Karwar

Characteristic heritage

Simple
Enthusiastic
Philosophical

Three Things That Scare You:
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Scary code
Impatient people
My PM ;-)

Three Of Your Everyday Essentials:
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Chat chat chat ( includes talking over phone )
Learn some new technical funda
Browse through blogs.


Three Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
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Yellow colored formal checks shirt
Casual jeans
Leather chappals

Three Things You Want In A Relationship:
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Understanding (CAPS, Italics, Underlined, quoted!)
Keep things simple
Mutual respect

Three statements that are not all true or all false:
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Life is beautiful
I am good
I like going to movies

Three Physical Things About the Opposite Sex That Appeal To You:
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Kewl Attitude
Talk and mean it.. not revealing everything. Mystery is needed ;-)
Simple looks ( not much make up!! )

Three Things You Want To Do Really Badly Right Now:
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Get a good digicam and start clicking!
Get a defect changed to the proper subsytem.
Go for a looooooooooooooooooooooooong drive in my santro

Three Places You Want To Go On Vacation:
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Switzerland
Coorg
Monte Carlo

Three Kids Name You Like:
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Manasa (My 1 year old cousin!)
Sharmila
Rohan

Three Things You Want To Do Before You Die:
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Technically brilliant
Start or partner in a new company!
Own a farm house

Three People Who Have To Take The Quiz Now:
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Giri - subzero
Deepa
Any one who wants to take it up ;-)

How should i be feeling :-?

I am in a lot of dilemna... i have no idea what i should be doing, how i should be feeling. heck i have no idea what i am rite now..

I got blastings for "Not inviting me?" thing just a few days back.. now the same happens with me... and i am quite.. why??? i am not able to find a proper reason why i am doing this. I dont know to blame ppl.. or i realise that its all because of my mistake/s, or i just dont feel like it?!?!? I know being right or wrong is relative and depends on how u feel.. but still i feel like wanting to know what is right?!

I have done many mistakes... being untruthful and expecting the other to be truthful to me.. i know its bad to do that.. somehow i didnt realise! now i am paying for my mistake.. i am made to realise i cant expect what i dont do myself.. good learning..
Now i have to forget about it and start looking at things positively (try). Nothing can be done abt mistakes already committed... something can be done to accept it and try and correct it and move on..

Apparently am appearing lost these days.. i dunno.. may be a bit careless too.. I am beginning to realise that i am actually overconfident about few things.. i shouldnt be.. i am not accountable.. not trustworthy.. nothing!!!! i dont like me myself like this.. i have to understand.. be responsible and act responsible.. i need to be humble... need to be truthful, atleast to myself....

I have stopped blaming anyone or anything for everything.. To see the things changed.. i have to change.. i have see things differently.. i will do it... nothing drastic.. just a slight improvement .. hopefully :-)

Right or Wrong!?

Yesterday Ferrari and Michael Schumacher won the Formula-1 Race held at Indianapolis USA.

Only six cars started the race due to a safety issue regarding the Michelin tyres. 14 cars didnt start which ran on Michelin. There is a banked corner in the race circuit. The banking is about 9 degrees which is something to be concerned about in F-1. Due to this a lot of pressure is put on the left rear tyre of the F-1 car. Michelin apparently were caught napping and didnt have a tyre setup which was able to take that pressure. Where as Bridgestone surprisingly had a good setup which could take it and finish the race fine.

Now Michelin adviced the teams which ran on their tyres not to run the race due to safety reasons. Teams obediently listened to the advice and got the cars in to the pits after the warm up lap. Now only Ferrari, Jordan and Minardi were left on track. The race began as normal and Ferrari finished 1-2 with Michael Schumacher and Barrichello in that order.

Now the so called supporters of Formula-1 Racing(Actually Mclaren and Renault supporters and Ferrari haters) started cribbing that in sportive spirit Ferrari also shouldnt have raced. I see no reason for it. It was very obvious that Michelin had a prob and tyres are an integral part of any race setup. If Michelin had a problem why should teams with proper setup give up. They have put efforts and put them in the right direction to get it rite... Why should their be rules to accomodate somones mistake!?

I think the blame game should stop here. Teams decided to back off from racing as it was obvious that their tyres had a problem. Now after taking that decision they shouldnt crib about others not taking the decision because they didnt have a prob!!!. Lets be logical about things.. its true we are passionate abt the teams we support, but dont let that blind our eyes from logic and whats right.

Frankly even i didnt watch the race as there was no real "Racing" happening. But what was happening was not wrong at all.. Face it, who makes a mistake has to pay for it!!!

Sangama...

Enroute to NandiHills, a moutain standing tall....

Sunset view from my terrace.. the sun is surprisingly clear!

Sunset

Sunset through my camer phone!

Feel good

How to feel good about almost all the things that happens around you!?. First and foremost you must feel good about yourself. How can anyone like everything around without liking oneself. Know yourself well enough, nothing actually seems so strange in the world.. try it .. it works!!!!

Change is the only constant thing. Life is a journey of self discovery. When you can never know yourself completely, why expect to know someone completely. Then one starts expects the other to react in a way which he/she assumes. Then starts usual, "You have changed! You were not like this!" .. crap.. One is oneself by doing the things he/she does.. I agree there are few things which can stick to one forever but there are more things which will change over due course.

Know that you have all the freedom you need.. all the freedom in your mind. Feel free.. and then .. more importantly.. know that each one of us(others) have the same freedom, let them exercise the freedom.. let them be free.. let them enjoy with you. No bonds, no strings attached. You will discover.. letting things free will actually bring them close to you..

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I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be

Song - "Numb"
Album - "Meteora"
Artist - "Linkin Park"
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beware.. and be free :-)

Welcome another friend!

Already i am playing host to few friends(cough, fever etc..). Now i have a terrible sprain in the neck... cant turn my head also.... so much pain, i didnt get any sleep after 3 am! Have taken a tab now.. hope it helps...

Am in lot of confusion these days.. facing serious financial crisis.. no money left to spend already.. beginning of the month!!!! Fuel for car is the major issue, 2 weeks later, have to go to native place.. next week friends are planning for a 3-day trip.. i dont think i will get permission at my place for that.. mainly due to the increasing expenses... i am spending a bit toooo much!!! have to get it down a bit...

After some time...

Lot of time has elapsed since my last post... Not much happened apart from a lot of things ;-)

Took an off from office on friday.. was bugged and sorta irritated.. so needed a break. Stayed at home till eve... then went out with friends to leela palace for bowling.. (Cant stay at home long!). It was fun..... Come saturday, was busy with so many things to do.. had to manage it all.. couldnt meet my friends also.. its been 4 consecutive weeks since i met the CBG (Our gang(grp) of friends). I am feeling really really bad abt that. Sunday.. went out with parent.. got some cassettes, books, had lunch came back. Wanted to go out again.. but alas, fever, cough, cold, head ache.. the distant friends of mine, planned to visit me all at once.. damn it they are still not leaving..!!!!

During all this time, I have learnt to live freely... and do what I like!!!
"I am able to do what I like because, I am not doing what I like but, i am LIKING what I am doing" :-))